Random Momma Thoughts

Letting Go

I was browsing through Pinterest today and stumbled upon this beautiful poem. I was suddenly flashed back to November 21, that’s exactly two weeks ago. It was the day my mom died. This is the very first time I am writing about it and I’m having a difficult time putting my thoughts into words, so please bear with me.

It was a Monday. As usual, Papa woke up early to prepare Mama’s food, medicines and to ask if she wants to go to the bathroom. Ever since she got home from the hospital, Mama cannot walk around without assistance. When Papa looked at her, Mama’s eyes were half open and seemed to look passed him. He kept on talking to her but she was unresponsive and the only sound she was making were grunting sounds as she breathe. As the day progressed, her feet and hands turned cold but when we checked her temperature it was 39.6°C. We wanted to make sure we are doing the right thing of not sending mom back to the hospital so I called her doctor and told him mom’s current state. With his response, we decided not to take her to the hospital anymore. We talked to her throughout the day knowing that she can hear us. At around 6 PM, me and my sister held to each Mama’s hands tightly. We could see she was dying. I found myself saying: ‘Go peacefully ma. It’s now okay to let go.’ I watched my mother die in front of me knowing that it was final and that I couldn’t stop it. (more…)

Currently {November}

I’ve been meaning to post some updates but then I’ve been so caught up with everything that’s happening in my life right now. Today, I feel a lot more settled and  I am emotionally stable so I guess I can finally push through with my November update. Also, I am trying to learn to live by the quote “Let God and let go”. 

Currently

Reading: About 3 weeks ago, I started reading Ransom Rigg’s series Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children. I was immediately smitten. This falls under fantasy/adventure category combined with a very unique style of photography (loved the idea of a story based upon found photography, isn’t that brilliant?!). These tell us the amazing adventures of the peculiar children. There are dark and disturbing sections so these are definitely not for kids. . I’m currently with the 3rd book, Library of the Souls.

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Listening to: The Piano Guys. With my recent emotional state, I found their songs very comforting.

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The First SONA of President Rodrigo Duterte

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photo credit: http://www.sona.inquirer.net

Peterson and I have been waiting for the very first SONA of President Rodrigo Duterte. Finally, 25th of July 2016 has come! The much-anticipated event lived up to everyone’s expectations. The speech was supposed to be short & sweet but it lasted for an hour and 35 minutes. Nevertheless, there was never a dull moment! Straight and sincere. I can’t help but noticed that Mr. President looks good with his eyeglasses on! LOL  As Presidential Communications Secretary Martin Andanar has said. “It’s nothing like any of the Sona speeches that we’ve heard before. This one will ask the nation, every citizen to march on and build the country. That’s how it’s like”.

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Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

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Day 3: My Experienced With Drugs & Alcohol

Oh my, I’m extremely behind with this challenge! Having no internet for 3 days was such a bummer! I ended up working during the weekend to makeup for the work I’ve missed.

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This is one of the many nights I went out with my friends back in the days. Nene days pa. We love listening to live music while having a couple beer or margaritas. 🙂 We usually go out during Wednesdays (ladies’ night) and Saturdays.

I’m going to make this entry short.

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